Was feeling a bit down but was telling myself I really needed to get started on a draft I had due for a blog advertorial. And so I had to download a song-playing app (it's honestly pretty awesome by the way) for this advertorial. The first artist I searched randomly was... Selena Gomez. I know. *hides face* I could have picked something cooler but it was the first thing that popped into my head.
So next I tried to think of something "cooler" (so that you know, my readers will think I'm cool) & hopefully a song I didn't already have in my iTunes. What popped into my head next was the favourite band of someone... I used to be very close to. Naturally being close to this person meant I had heard these songs many times & quite liked them, but never got round to downloading them myself. So I searched the band & picked a song title that seemed familiar. What stunned me next was how hearing this song unleashed a crazy torrent of emotions. Mostly confusion at why this was happening. It's been quite a while. Didn't see where this was coming from at all. And I sat there & cried & didn't know why. Maybe even though you've both moved on & life continues, it's just jarring how a person can be practically your entire world for a period of time, & also disappear from it.
... Maybe also hormones. I shall blame it on hormones. There. Did I just kill it?